Thursday, February 27, 2014

Maniacal March

If you are in university, you will understand this completely. If not, maybe this will help you when things get insane. This is a stressful time for university goers. We are running head on into the last month of the entire school year. For me, this means I have all five essays for all five classes due in March. Two are due next week. Which means procrastination is efficient, sleep amounts are low, and caffeine levels are high. It happens. At a time like this, we need to increase our productivity, so I decided to write a list of the things I think would help with this universal issue. Don’t get down on yourself, procrastination is inevitable.
Here we go:

1.       MAKE YOUR BED
No, seriously. At the end of the day, the only thing I want to do is crawl into bed. When my bed is unmade, I get way too comfortable and I usually end up napping. I have less desire to crawl into bed when I see that it is nicely done up. It forces me to sit up and it makes me almost want to get a move on things. Almost.

I know this sounds dumb, but think about it: how long do you spend picking out an outfit in the morning? Now think about this: if you take that time out of your morning routine, it means you have that extra time to sleep in!

For me, this means keeping my room clean. I am NOT by any means a neat person. It takes more effort than it should for me to keep things clean. But I know from past times when my room was actually clean that a clean room means a clean mind. I believe that you are influenced by your surroundings. It’s why people go to peaceful places to write. It is also why I have moved my work to my dad’s office.

“I’ll just watch this one YouTube video . . . it’s only a couple minutes away from 9:45, so I’ll just watch another one until then . . . they put a link to another video in the description box and I may not remember to watch it late so I’ll watch it now . . . I may as well catch up on the videos I didn’t watch last week . . . oh no, how did it get to 11:00!?!?!”
Sound familiar? This happens to me literally every single time I need to get something done. It is very important to take breaks when you’re working, but keep it reasonable people. Don’t get caught up in something you love. I like to read on breaks. It’s easy to say I’ll read two chapters because chapters actually have an end so it’s not like I’m stopping in the middle of something. Try some sit ups, or listening to a few songs, or eating some kind of candy that dissolves. Find what works for you.

Once, I was working in my sister’s room and she shook her head at me every time I picked up my vibrating phone. It really irked me, but I realized she had a good thing going on by turning her phone on silent. I am a curious creature, so I always want to know who is texting me. So I started turning my phone on silent and texting people back at a time that worked better for my productivity. It also helps to turn your phone over so you don’t see it light up.

6.       MAKE A PLAN
I organize myself by forming a series of lines and dots and squiggles that represent certain elements of my to-do list. It’s like a checklist, but cooler. It makes sense to no one but me. It’s basically a secret code. I find that it really helps me focus. It’s more fun and less overwhelming than a list. Once again, find what works for you.

This is a BIG problem for me. Browsing Facebook gets boring after a while, but if I click on articles, I end up wasting an hour and a half in a loop of endless Disney cartoons and Jennifer Lawrence GIFs. Easiest solution is to avoid the situation in the first place.

This is all I can think of for now. I admit, I am doing 0/6 of these items right now. On the bright side, I have come up with a temporary purpose for this blog. Procrastination tool.

Happy writing!


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

My Truths

So this is a blog. I’ll be honest, I’m not sure what to expect out of this. My ultimate hope is that one person in this Internet world can relate to me, and not feel so alone. This is something that I struggle with, so I get it. I’m not going to make promises about weekly posts, and I have no clue what type of blog this is going to be. Rants? Lists? Poems? Who knows? Let’s just do this together. I think it would be really cool if we played 20 questions but a) I don’t know who you are at all and b) maybe when I press submit I’m sending this into a black hole. So I’m going to tell you 20 truths about me instead. I want you to be able to relate to me in some way. So the first 10 will be general facts, and the last 10 will be a little more personal. This is not about pity, or finding support. This is about reaching out in hopes of touching someone that feels alone. That is what I want. You don’t like it? Go away.
Here we go:

1.    I am really close with my family. I mean, I actually like to go on vacations with them.
2.   My sister is my absolute best friend in the whole wide world. We refer to each other as “seesters,” or in more recent instances “seech.” This is how I will refer to her from here on out.
3.       Hanging out with my dad is one of my favourite activities in the world.
4.       I ski in the winter and camp in the summer and as a result, I’ve done some really cool things and seen some really cool parts of Canada.
5.       I’m Canadian. And I like to watch hockey.
6.       I’m in school to become a teacher. I’ve known that I was born to be a teacher since grade 3.
7.       My worst fears include my basement, chickens, skeletons in museums, and dogs.
8.       I love, love, love, love, love to read.
9.       My ultimate dream place to live would be somewhere in the mountains, but I don’t think I can get a teaching job there.
10.   The best thing I own is my onesie.
11.   I am all about quality over quantity, particularly when it comes to friends. I don’t have a lot of friends, but the ones I have are the best I could ever ask for.
12.   At the time of writing this, I have never been on a date. And sometimes, I feel really self-conscious about that.
13.   I have struggled with depression at a few points in my life.
14.   I have had to let go of so many friends that when something happens, and I’m not friends with someone anymore, it hardly hurts.
15.   I don’t think I have ever truly fit in before.
16.   Elementary school was a very dark time in my life, and the last parts of high school come in a close second.
17.   I hate being alone, but I end up alone most of the time because I have the worst luck when it comes to making plans.
18.   I am not at all skinny, or overly pretty. I’m average.
19.   I tend to slip into ruts where I am not motivated to do anything which means my room is a mess and my brain is a mess and I become a mess and it is not a good place.
20.   I have been through therapy a couple times.

That’s me. Not all of me, but enough of me. Did you find one small thing you can relate to?  I am not an ideal person. Not even a little bit. But I’m real. I have never and will never try to be someone I’m not. For me, life is not about being ideal. It’s about being real. Life is messier, and harder, but it is also more beautiful if you look back and know that YOU accomplished everything on YOUR terms. I once read a quote in a Chicken Soup book that said “Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful; if it’s bad, it’s experience.” I took that to heart and I have taken all my experiences as something to learn from. And you know what? It made me a better person. I have been able to connect myself and my past without holding on to the past. It made me more authentic.

Thank you for starting this journey with me. I don’t know where this is going to end up, and I don’t know when we shall talk next, but it has been a pleasure. Also, I wrote this instead of finishing the last 1000 words of a history essay. Bonus fact: I procrastinate.